poopoo

It's been a very long time!

2009-03-04T00:14:11Z

I have no idea where to begin, my life had changed a LOT in the past year.

Of course I'm still neurotic and self obsessed but those things will never change.

I've recently left uni; I found a really well paid job (part time then, when the full time opportunity came up I had to take it). Everything seemed to be getting in the way of it and it was a huge relief when I left, although I'm now scared I'm going to do nothing with my life. It would have been unfeasably hard to have finished this year as there is a 2month work experience which would have meant I would have had to have given up my job.

I know uni is supposed to be more important but my flat isn't the cheapest and there's no way I could have managed without a wage coming in - especially with my dad having financial problems aswell.

Which brings me to the new flat. I don't have any pictures but www.queensclubgardens.com will give you an idea of how amazing it is! It's actually huge and amazing!

The last place didn't end too well with it being broken into, myself and my flatmate blamed and evicted. This ment a week and a half of living in a hotel which isn't ideal (would have been a week but that bloody snow had to get in the way) while I waited on the contract for the new place being sorted. Thank god we'd already found another place!

I don't know what else to update on really - my love life is a shambles as usual, friends are amazing (well, the ones I bother with at least), work is good, flat is good, still drunk FAR too much. Infact, I was so wasted on saturday I had a pint of cider between my tits and people were drinking from it... while the bouncer took pictures.

Sigh.

Some things will never change!

hiiii :)

2008-02-19T23:46:13Z

Heyho, how are we all?

Been rather a while since I updated properly! I did try earlier but it crashed :( I'm sure there's been loads of things going on so let's see how it goes! Starting with the most obvious.

Men

I am single as usual (when am I ever not?) I was seeing a guy called Jamie who was lovely but we just wanted completely different things - he wanted to plunge straight into a big serious relationship and me, being me, got scared.

Valentines Day was apauling, I stayed in bed till about half past three, got a last minute date then got stood up. I bought my own rose then came home and indulged in a lot of chocolate and other crap food..

Went on a date on Friday with a guy called Nick, who's nice but I'm not sure. I was two hours late because I didn't wake up untill 11.45 when we were supposed to have met at 11. I got ready in 15 minutes but had to run to get the train and didn't get a ticket so they were giving me a penalty fare, I had to get off at Wimbledon with them because they were getting off there. Having been rather stressed and not had either a coffee or a cigarette I decided to have a temper tantrum: I refused to stop argueing then started shouting and threw my handbag at a concrete block-thing and then started crying - lovely.

I ended up not getting him till 1.15, it did end up being the longest first date ever though. I also broke into a park, we walked down to go in and it was closed so I climbed over the fence haha.

Friends

I barely speak to anyone anymore to be honest. I've not spoken to Sean in weeks. David I talk to sometimes on msn, same with lesley and the occasional encounter with Stef.

Martyn I normally speak to a lot but my phone has been cut off so I've barely spoke to him. Scott's probably the person I talk to the most, which I suspect is a good thing as he's rather the better friend than many of my past ones.

Uni

Had loaaaaads going on for uni!
I've got three essays for next week: one for my contextual studies class and another for contextual studies because of non-submission last semester. The non-submission one is a 1000word essay on fashion in 20th century and due in next week, if I don't pass it I'll be chucked out of uni because it's a non-sub resit. Another is a reflective essay on my photoshoot, which I'm determined to do well on because I've not missed a single class this semester and worked really hard on the shoot! I'll get onto talk about that in a minute though.

I'm pretty proud of not having missed a single class. I was supposed to go in an pick up my work from the last module today but I'm too scared I've failed.

Getting Old

Ok, I know I'm not old, but I turn 20 in August and I've done nothing with my life so far.
By the time I turn 20 I want to:

Have a serious relationship/ fall in love
Go on a non-family holiday
Go camping
Have a go at driving
Sort out my finances
Get all the rubbish people out my life
Throw an awesome party
Climb Ben Nevis
Go to Blackpool or Brighton

Those are things most people have done, but still, I haven't.

Photoshoot

Photoshoots are unbelievably stressful!

We done it in pairs and the girl I was with did basically nothing! I got a location, who messed us about, so I found another. I got a model and a hair and make up artist, who then canceled and I got seperate ones who subsequently canceled at 11pm the night before and 9am the morning of.

We had to borrow and use our own things to style because Rachel refused to spend any money, which ended up being a good thing because at the tutorial on the Monday we were told we should change the clothes. So, the Monday late afternoon running down Oxford Street getting outfits and the Monday night re-styling. I say that, I mean Rachel saying no to just about everything and then me styling and her trying the things on and writing the outfits down and me taking the photos.

Oh yeah, we had to do it on the Tuesday (when we were supposed to be in Contextual Studies) because as soon as Rachel knew we had the rest of the week off to shoot she decided to go home on the Tuesday night and as far as I knew until the Monday she had booked it - too late to give us (me) more time to organise it.

I spent the rest of the night trying to get a hair and make up artist, same with the morning. I also had to iron and prepare all the clothes, acessories, kit bag and everything else into the order we needed them and jewellery into containers etc so didn't get tangled, shoes making sure they were clean and it all packed. I spent fucking an hour and a half ironing 3 dresses, a pair of shorts and a couple of tops!

Everything was going wrong! All the trains were buggered up, I ended up having to do hair and make up and the club had flooded the night before and was a total mess!

Rachel was also really lazy in the shoot: I done the photography, hair and make up, directing the model, where we shot in the club (which had to change because of the flood), styling, helping Cheryl get ready because we only had 2hours there and setting everything up.

She did write down the outfits though, pack up all of her stuff as soon as it was finished with and messed all my time consuming organisation, fantastic help.

it was fantastic though! So much fun!
And it turned out well, I've put some pictures if you want a ganter :)

Anyway!!!!!!
it's been rather a long post so I shall bring it to a close :)

Give me some banter, it's been forever since I spoke to most people on here.

been a while

2008-01-29T20:54:10Z

I'm not sure exactly much has changed since I last updated but I seem to have.

Uni isn't going to great because I haven't been going much or doing any work: thay's going to change this semester.

I've just given up on men these days - I went on an atrocious date last night and it really was the last straw.

I seem to be megabus's best customer as i'm up and down from home all the time - i seem to revert to alcoholism and bitching when I'm there though.

I can't think of much else I need to update on at the moment.
xx

janefudd @ 2007-09-27T23:21:00

2007-09-27T22:21:44Z

For the first three people that reply to me and re-post this challenge - I will send you something groovy.

It might be something I've made, or something cool from my hidden stash of fabulousity, it might be a mix CD - or a rubber duck, a book I think you will enjoy, or something else that is awesome.

Whatever it is, I promise that I will get it to you in 365 days or less. (I will need your snail mail if you're not local).

Theonly thing you need to do in order to participate is to be one of the first three to reply to this, AND post this very same thing on YOUR Livejournal - cause its fun to give people stuff.

Do this?

2007-09-25T15:09:39Z

1. Do you have a tattoo?
2. How old are you?
3. Are you single or taken?
4. Eat with your hands or utensils?
5. Do you dream at night?
6. Ever seen a UFO/ghost/spirit/me turn down a drink?
7. Bob Dylan or Lou Reed?
8. How did we meet?

HERE COMES THE EQUALLY INTERESTING PART...
9. What's your philosophy on life and death?
10. If you could do anything with me, and have no one know, what would it be?
11. Do you trust the police?
12. Do you like Country music?
13. What is your fondest memory of me?
14. If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?
15. Would you cheat?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Have you ever peed in a pool?
18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Which do you prefer - short or long hair?
21. Do you sing in the shower?
22. What's your favorite color?
23. If you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?
24. Tell me one interesting/odd fact about you?
25. What was your first impression of me?
26. Have you ever done drugs?
27. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

It's funny

2007-09-05T00:33:31Z

How losing something you didn't even know you had can affect you.

I don't know how to feel at the moment.
I'm upset.
In a way relieved, which feels wrong.

I just don't know.
My stomachs sore.
Too much Kola Kubes.
Infact
I blame Stef's Corona
I know I shouldn't drink beer

Proper Update?

2007-09-01T19:01:31Z

Well, everything seems to be nearly sorted now!

I am moving on 8th to stay with my Aunt while I get the housing situation sorted. I spoke to a couple of people today, one of which is only £55 a week for the room including bills. Downside - 3 miles from the Uni and can't smoke inside! Which means I'll probably end up giving up, which can only be a good thing!

I've still not got my re-assessment from SAAS but hopefully I'll get that soon.

I'll probably be sending some of my stuff down by post as we're only going to be able to carry 2 big holdals and a suitcase and in theres got to be: my dad's clothes for 4 days, towels, sheets, duvet covers, clothes, shoes, make up, toiletries, nail polish, hair stuff, bags.. everything
My dads like "yeh you won't fit all your stuff in a small room" but I need have more than what we can carry because that's just going to be impossible! I found this tho http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1&item=170144212127&ssPageName=STRK:MEWA:IT&ih=007
which is pretty cheap :)

George and I broke up a while ago, then he kept fucking with me even after that.
I was on his Bebo today and i was just like wtf, what was i thinking! haha
Seriously though.

Iain and I (i was just looking through old posts and for the past forever every couple of entries have been bitching about him) have been getting on well. We broke up just before I got with George and stopped talking really. Then we started talking again and met up the other week: it was really romantic :) I just loved spending time with him. Of course, nothing will happen again, I wouldn't chose staying here with the possibility of something happening over going to London.
It's just, finding it hard to let go. I've found loads of his stuff and of course things he's giving me while I've been clearing out. it's been hard. I still wear his ring though, which I shouldn't. I wish I could actually give him these things back, but I couldn't.

I think it's just my way of holding onto the past.
These things aren't important to me anymore.
Most of the things up here just aren't important to me anymore.

There was someone else I liked, who I won't mention, but it's not going to happen. Was a bit of a disappointment but heyho.

I'm just bored of men.
Bring on the lesbians? haha

But aye, everything else is fine. David has been annoying me so much lately and I just can't be arsed with it. I'm so broke, had to go cancel my direct debits yesterday, which isn't good.
Give me money?
ahaha

Anyhooo
I've just noticed the time!
One shall go get ready to go out.
Bennets :D :D

Hope everyone is well

xxx

7 Days

2007-09-01T18:33:46Z

Till I move to Epsom
or as it's looking a small village just outside? :)

Eeep
x

janefudd @ 2007-08-28T12:49:00

2007-08-28T11:50:22Z

Happy birthday to me :)
People are cunts
But the people that matter arent :)

janefudd @ 2007-07-27T21:33:00

2007-07-27T20:34:37Z

I got into uni :D
I am that cool :)
University College for the Creative Arts at Epsom
Got offered two courses: Fashion Journalism and Music and Lifestyle Journalism.
Think I'm gonna do Fashion
IM MOVING TO LONDON
wooop!

janefudd @ 2007-07-20T23:54:00

2007-07-20T22:55:05Z

the last 8 days have been about the worst of my life
I'm a complete mess right now and have no idea how to pull myself back together.

janefudd @ 2007-06-25T12:50:00

2007-06-25T11:50:36Z

Quit my job
New guy
Moving to Surrey
that's about it

OH

2005-11-26T00:54:37Z

Yeh... my lj is friends only now
leave a comment and i might add you

xox

janefudd @ 2005-11-14T22:18:00

2005-11-14T22:20:46Z

http://i16.photobucket.com/albums/b35/janefudd/oofftmyhair.jpg
fuzzy emo pose?

http://i16.photobucket.com/albums/b35/janefudd/fuzzyemopose.jpg
check the state eh that hair!

hm yep...

janefudd @ 2005-10-20T16:04:00

2005-10-20T15:17:53Z

you know what, if you have a problem with me or anything i say, tell me don't make some cheap ass comment about me, go get a life

Anyway, yeh, i've had to stay in all this week so far during the day because we're waiting on the guys coming to fix our doors and they said they'd be here sometime this week. Fucking wanks, is it too much to ask to give an actual date? So i have resorted too cleaning my room and clearing out stuff.

Ahh well, my boss is leaving, so the food staff have pitched in money to get her flowers and guess who's to go get them? Oh yes, and what do i know about flowers? Uhuh.
What else is new?

I still can't play my bass, but i did actually strum it today, so wahay

Life is good, the weather has sucked today, but it looking nicer now, so i'll probably go out later.
I'm gonna dress up as cinderella for halloween, so i'm going to TK Max to get a dress on saturday.
*thinks of something else to say*

Hawthorne heights was great, Silverstein were fucking awsome. Liam was there with his skank of a girlfriend *sighs* The amount of scene kids *kicks them* so annoying, then there were the hot emos *mmm* yeh. David came and got us outside the garage with kirsty after drama and i got the cho cho cho home with him while he mocked my lack of being able to sing.
I forgot my camera, which was shit, coulda took a picture of the guitarist's ass if i hadnt missed that.
dang

ah well
i shall go phone someone
david possibly, yeh
toodles

xox

janefudd @ 2005-10-06T18:12:00

2005-10-06T17:14:09Z

beep beep

drinking session at davids

janefudd @ 2005-09-27T22:58:00

2005-09-27T22:01:30Z

the sad teen. Everything in life is f*ckin'
miserable. You constantly look over your
shoulder and wonder who is judging you...even
when you are alone. So naturally, you have
become a little paranoid and pessamistic. Your
personality can be one demensional but
confusing. You are constantly bored with life
and wish that something could spice it up. You
have a unique view on life and have identified
the problems with school society (Ex...what
makes popular people, how the student mind
works...) You would rather be alone because you
hate being hurt. You tend to think that no one
understands you, not even your parents /
guardians / friends. But that is just the
opposite! The people who love you want to
help, but they don't know how because they have
a feeling that they will say something wrong
and turn you away. You have to let them know
that you are willing to hear what they have to
say...and it might do some good to listen to
them.

Some fields you might consider going
in when you are older...Judge, author,
songwriter, producer, therapist, psychologist,
philosopher, or forensic scientist. You need a
job where you can express yourself and your
views on life. Or you need a field where you
can judge others and predict what is going on
in others life. Either way... you have the
personality to get you a good job that will
support you throughout life.

What type of teenager are you?
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urg i feel ill
iv been being sick all day

janefudd @ 2005-09-16T13:46:00

2005-09-16T12:55:16Z

Where is Jane's mum tonight,
I hope she's in her coffin,
and maybe she won't find out what we know
her daughters turned into a big scaffy ho

he's a scumbag :)

im gonna get drunk tonight, work tomorrow, then get drunk again and sleep most of sunday then go into town :)

janefudd @ 2005-09-13T21:37:00

2005-09-13T20:39:21Z

why do i cry over him?

janefudd @ 2005-09-13T17:23:00

2005-09-13T16:25:48Z

i hate men
yes, yes, yes i do.

janefudd @ 2005-08-14T12:01:00

2005-08-14T13:48:14Z

This summer what have you done.

Have you been to a party? yes

Spent the night with a friend? yes

Laughed until your stomach hurt? yes

Gone on a vacation? yes

Tanned? no

Went to a camp? no.

Swam? no

Went to the movies? no

Gone shopping? yep

Are you even out of school? yes

Gotten freakishly bored? nope.

Gotten sun burned yet? yep

Gotten drunk? god yes

Made a bonfire? no.

Been outside during a lightning storm? nope

Been to any other state? no?

Been to another country? em engerland

Been to the the hospital with an injury? nope.

Commited a crime/broken the law? hah yes

Stolen anything? nope

Gone on a road trip? nope

Had sex? nope

Had a b/f, or g/f? nope

Dumped a g/f or b/f? nope

Been to a concert? nope

Went camping? nope - although i was invited to on friday night then last night like em no? pfft camping

Got stoned? yes

Was out past cerfew? hah yeh

Went skinny dipping? nope

janefudd @ 2005-08-12T12:48:00

2005-08-12T11:49:35Z

You scored as Rocker, Mosher. Your A Rocker!

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Rocker, Mosher

90%

Emo

65%

Goth

60%

Trendy

45%

Skater

20%

Prepy

20%

Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev

What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy E.c.t
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weeee :)
im goin shopping
sean is ordering my pretty new converse today
xx

janefudd @ 2005-06-12T15:48:00

2005-06-12T14:50:36Z

prom was amazing, pics at www.picturetrail.com/janefudd
shall be getting more to put up soon though.

http://www.matthewbarr.co.uk/geek/index.php

Geek Test Results
You are 10% geeky.

You're quasi-geeky, you're semi-geeky, you're the margarine of geeky. You're the Diet Coke of geeky - just one calorie, not geeky enough.

I'll update more later.
x

janefudd @ 2005-06-03T01:01:00

2005-05-03T00:02:37Z

WAAAAAAH
iv felt shit today, but i just went n looked through old entries n it well cheered me up, iv gotta say im a strange strange girl and i shop rather a lot!
i wanna try and think about the positive!
just so happens im finding it hard to find anything positive but none the less
Im ill as shit
Iv got exams in not even 2 weeks
iv got no hope what so ever with the guy i want, i have fancied him for like forever just recently iv been thinking about him x 785075075
I wanna learn guitar so iv decided after exams im gonna make sean teach me how to read music and get someone to buy me an early birthday present of a guitar and get lessons :)

i forgot about this aha :d
anyway
feeling good :)
x

janefudd @ 2005-05-31T17:12:00

2005-05-01T16:31:25Z

I AM: ill
I WANT: someone i'll cant have
I HAVE: a throat infection and fuck knows what else
I WISH: For *****
I HATE: how i look
I FEAR: spiders?
I HEAR: ashlee simpson
I SEARCH: myself
I REGRET: nothing
I LOVE: my friends
I ALWAYS: swear ?
I AM NOT: thin?
I DANCE: when drunk
I SING: too much
I AM NOT ALWAYS: drunk - honest :)
I WIN: rarely
I LOSE: a lot
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: him
I SHOULD: be revising

YES or NO

YOU KEEP A DIARY: No
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: yes
YOU HAVE GOALS FOR THE FUTURE: yes
HAVE A CRUSH: yes
WANT TO GET MARRIED: yes
WANT TO HAVE KIDS: yes
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: No
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: No
BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: no
BELIEVE IN GOD?: yes
BELIEVE THAT THERE IS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING:no

FAVOURITES ....

NUMBER: 7
COLOUR: Pink
MONTH(S): july
SONG(S): dunno
PART OF YOUR BODY: nothing
MOVIE: duno
PLACE TO BE KISSED: My Neck
RESTAURANT: dunno

PREFERENCES

CUDDLE OR KISS: both
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: milk
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: white
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: Chocolate

IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...

CRIED?: no
HELPED SOMEONE? yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING? no
GOTTEN SICK?: yes
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: No
SAID ´i love you´?: no
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: no
TALKED TO AN EX?: no
MISSED AN EX?: no *woo*
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: no never :-|
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: no
MISSED SOMEONE? yes
HAD SEX WITH SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS?yes
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? No

Firsts

First Best friend: nicola
First Crush: bill
First Car: cant drive
First Kiss: bill
First Big Trip: dunno
First Detention: first year - from tech :(, i woulda been 12?
First Time Dyeing MyHair: when i was 12 - highlights
First Formal Dance: never been to one
First Time Breaking A Bone: 10, got hit by a car coming home from football

LAST:

Last Cuss Word: about 5 minutes ago
Last Compliment: laura told me i looked cute or something earlier?
Last girlfriend/boyfriend: chris
Last Crush: ***** :-p
Last Good Cry: last week
Last Shoes Worn: work shoooes
Last Annoyance: just now, i cant breathe right :(
Last Birthday Celebrated: rachels

Have u ever:

Kissed your cousin: No
Ran away: yes
Pictured your crush naked:YES!
Skipped school:yes
Broken someone´s heart: No
Been in love:Yes
Wanted someone you knew you couldn´t have: yes
Done something embarrassing: Yes - constantly
Done a drug: yes
Cried in school: yes

Randoms

Coke or Pepsi: Coke
Sprite or 7UP: sprite
Tall or Short:tall
Trousers or Shorts: Trousers
Night or Day: Night

What do you notice first about a person: eyes
Last person you slow danced with: dunno
Worst Question To Ask: dunno
THE LAST TIME YOU...

Showered: yesterday morning, just out the bath tho?
Stepped outside: last night
Had Sex: 5 weeks ago? or something :)
romantic memory: lets not go there :)
Your Good Luck Charm: dont have one
Person You Hate Most: andy this dude from work - cos he said some shit so he wouldnt get put up captains again and that we didnt have any disipline so now we have to go in early next sunday morning for training and christines job depends on it :-|

Best Thing That Has Happened: vodka being invented
What´s on your desk: ashtray, celotape, letter from the bank, O2 thing, fake nails, cam, dairy milk wrapper, pen lip, my celtic pendant, notebook, other computer junk
Picture on your desktop: dougie from mcfly
Artist/bands: dunno
Cars: doono
Ice Cream: mint Chocolate chip
Breakfast: i dont tend to eat breakfast

WHO...
Makes you laugh the most: sean + lee-anne + davie at work
Makes you smile: ***** :-p
Can make you feel better no matter what: dunno
Has A Crush On You: noone
Do You Have A Crush On Someone: Yes.
Who Has it easier? Men

DO YOU EVER...

Wish you were someone else: No
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: No
Cuddle: Yes
Kiss: Yes

HAVE YOU EVER...

Fallen for your best friend?: No
Made out with JUST a friend?:yes
Kissed two people in the same day?: Yes
Been in love?: yes
Been in lust? Yes
Used someone?: no
Been used?: Yes
Been cheated on?: Yes
Been kissed?: Yes